If, you, any of you reading this now went through a dark place in your lifetime and you came out - better, new, mature, a stronger person. I commend all of you. Whether it be anxiety, depression etc. Well done on making it so far, it's far from easy and you slowly feel like you're not needed in the world. It's spiralling further and further into nothing.
Today's drawing is based on a quote that I stumbled across whilst doing research for my FMP at foundation. It spoke very personally to me and it's become one of my favourites ever since. It is said by a dancer, Martha Graham. This quote represented how I had been majority of my foundation year. I was eager, yet paranoid to make friends but was afraid how I would get judged for mostly my appearance (I was going through other difficulties as well) and assumed that if two people were whispering or gossiping, I instantly assumed that I had done something wrong. I always had. I'd always compare myself to the more confident girls in my group, how they were just so collected and didn't give two shits about what anyone else thought of them. (But I know I'll be that woman one day). I was just drowning in my own negative thoughts. But that all turned around in the same year too. Click here for my story :).
Today, I discovered the more gentle side of cross hatching. If that makes sense? xD It looks more effective than big bold strokes and makes my drawing look more realistic. Another reason why I'm glad I did this project: there's always room for improvement. Instead of finishing off the drawing normally, I added question marks at the bottom because in my mind, after I finished talking to someone I'd always think: Speak more louder. I hope I looked alright. Aaahh, why did I say that? It may sound superficial, but imagine your mind creating those kind of thoughts each and every day. As Katara rightly said in 'Korra Alone' The mind can be a powerful ally or your greatest enemy". Til next time!
Miriam xxx
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